Today was bitter-sweet and quite emotional so it's hard to tell what's me, what's potential illness or what's just the drugs. More headaches, dizziness and nausea, but at this point, that goes without saying. Firstly, I quit my job as I start back at Assessment Strategies next week. The job sucked, but the people there were amazing. It hasn't hit me that I'm finished there. After work, Devin and a coworker, Sarah and I drank a bottle of wine and got stoned in the park. Afterwards Dev and I were watching a conversation he was having on MSN mobile with Betty-Jane. Hearing what she was saying was like a punch in the gut. Stuff like this makes me know I'm not 100% normal because my response was not appropriate. I guess it goes to prove that addictions die hard. I get upset like that and the urges start all over again. But that's another story altogether...
I'm starting to wonder if I'm doing the right thing with this whole detox plan. If anything, I may just go off this shit so I can get on something with a longer half life. Who knows... I certainly don't have any answers.
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